was, i have this very disturbed quite twisted scene in the movie where i go through a very horrible thing. i'm not going to go into any detail but i was kind of half naked and it was, it really messed me up my whole, my soul and my body. and i remember that i was on that table, and ridley, he was so in there with me. i never ever felt like he was looking at me from a sexual point of view. it felt like he was breathing and thinking and living the character with me inside her. so and i just remember that i was completely exhausted and i left the studio and i felt like oh god, i'm losing it. but at the same time, i was so happy and just full of energy because the way he works, he's so, he's almost like a -- he's so passionate and into it, into every detail and into his characters and to the big set.